Dont you know?

Alone in my head, just writing again
No one to listen, no helping hand
The twist and the turns, confusion it burns
I think to myself, when is it your turn?


My body is numb I'm not really here
Just watching from far feeling the fear
The same old thing over and over
We came here and swore we would be sober

I feel so sad, but I want to be happy
Sometimes its great, but mostly its crappy
Each day something different I try and I try
Nothing works, its just "Fuck-off" or "Bye-bye"

The spark inside is fading away
I never thought it would be this way
How can I fix this and make you see
I just want to be happy and worry free

But happiness is gone, I'm fading away
Don't you see I cant live this way
Here comes the shit, after we fought
Here I am stuck in my head full of thought

Writing it down like someone is here
Feeling my pain, knowing my fears
Alone in my head, no one is near
Afraid of my thought, drowned in my tears

Just do what you promised, don't make me beg
The pain would be less if you broke my damn leg
I'm tired of stress and broken dreams
You tore out my soul right from the seams

What next might I ask? No water, no food
This might sound harsh, but what do I do
You don't take me serious, I'm asking you to change
My life is no toy, my heart is no game

I want us to last as long as we can
Please show me the life, the one you have planned
Let us be happy, no fighting no stress
Help me and try to clean up this mess